Atlast I’ve done reading If I stay. Cried a lot. Gayle is a tearjerker.
The Bert and Jhel Adventures.
After such cute adventures we’ve gone the past few weeks, it was pretty much tiring, yet nostalgic. Things would come to make you realize that material things aren’t the most important things in the world, it ain’t luxuries as well, but it’s the memories you create from time to time.
We’re way to 9th month and it feels amazing and good to have such relationship worth more than anything else, and having someone worth more than anyone else. It feels good to have new memories with him. Not those romantic ones but those what you can remember as you lay down to sleep at night.
The perduring happiness behind those ups and downs that happen sometimes is still worth-handling because it’s him, and he alone could give you those butterflies tickling your little stomach.
It’s him and he alone could make you remember such sweet promises of forever.
It’s him and only he could give you the glance at future when he plans it with you.
It’s him and only he could be the reason of your pain and tears yet you see it in your hands that the relationship still glows, not wanting it to sieve down the spaces of your hands,
It’s him and only he could give you the most unique moments no matter how cliche it is for others,
It’s him and only he could kiss, hold your hands, tickle you, make you happy, kiss the back of your hand and forehead, and make it as the best things in you.
It’s him and only he could …
It isn’t the material things that matter the most. It is the chance to bond and create new memories together.
Maybe I should stop thinking about it and just do whatever I feel is right. If I think about something too much, it starts to make less sense. When I think about the situation, I feel like it was awkward and weird but no one else thought it was. It was probably me. It’s like when I think about a word and its spelling, I feel like I’m spelling the word wrong. Maybe I should just stop thinking.
Namimiss ko na yung dati. Ang dami na kasong nagbago e. :-(
Insomnia’s different, I said. It was hard to explain this to people. You know the light that comes on when you open the refrigerator door? Just imagine it stays on all the time, even after you close the door. That’s what it’s like in my head. The light stays on.
Ayokong dumating yung isang araw na bigla na lang akong masanay kahit hindi na kita makausap, magiging okay lang. Ayokong dumating yung araw na pati makatext ka, or magpaload man lang, ikatamad ko na kasi hindi mo na ko nabibigyan ng time. Pero sige iintindihin ko pa rin :’)
Namimiss ko na siya. Nasa work kasi siya ngayon eh. Sabi niya 8pm daw yung out niya, and 8pm na kaya hinihintay ko na siya. Namimiss ko na siya huhuhu. Lol drama lang. 😘